Journal

I added another page that makes the site more 'informal'. I wonder if potential employers would be dissatisfied with the informality or be excited I'm breaking the mold. In all fairness, art is apart of our cultures and connects us in so many ways, I don't see why an artist shouldn't be allowed to be more expressive in most things they make whether it be a website or otherwise. Obviously, I'm still keeping formality in most of the pages and the singular one I've added is hidden anyways. It's just a small "Get to Know Me" kind of thing. I've always wanted a better place to put information that others might want to know about me (I'm not really big on posting anything on social media), but I rarely get to note anything about myself and rarely find anything about myself to be noteworthy. Part of this is because I find myself to be awfully contradictory. I want a face for myself here, but I hate self portraits. I want to feel seen, but I'm afraid of attention. I want to express myself, but I'm worried I'll step too far out of my box for others' liking. It's a learning curve for sure, trying to have an online presence that's different, more real. I know I'll figure it out, it's just... Gosh, I wish it were easier.

6:33 AM

Finally have some form of structure for the site instead of a landing page! It's kind of exciting even though I wish I could do more all at once. Hopefully the sections will be updated with actual content soon. I still have a laundry list of things to complete before that can happen though. I won't say too much about it at the moment.

I wonder what else I should put in the journal entries... I will say I want to avoid them from being about my personal life, but I don't mind sharing anything I'm interested in at the moment! Maybe I can focus the entries on work I'm excited about or upcoming events I'm looking forward to. I've never had a journal before, so maybe this will be something interesting to try out. At the very least it can help me organize the many projects I want to work on! Or maybe the journal is like its own art project, painting a picture of myself through words describing the thoughts that float through my mind... I think that's a better way to describe this!

I also am unsure how long to make these. Should I care about making a limit for myself for the sake of others even if it's my own space and I should logically be allowed to do whatever I please here? Maybe that's a bit too deep to think about. Almost can't help thinking of it though haha- I think I'd like to type these in a more conversational tone, too... I hope it's not bothersome to read! I think the journal would be helpful in reminding others that I am a person. Sometimes I feel like we forget people are still people when they feel untouchable in some way.

Enough of my 1-2 AM thoughts though, I hope you have a good day/night!